Terzanelle to the Departed Beloved

In a way, when you died, it was my rebirth
-- There, I'm sorry, but I've finally said it --
It took time to discover what I was worth.

We were both to blame, I freely admit it;
though I never told you while you were here,
what a relief! Now I've finally said it.

At first I always had to have you near,
then I got too close. You pulled me in like tar;
it kept my mouth shut while you were still here.

I circled you, the planet to your star.
I might have thought to escape your gravity,
but I was too close; you'd caught me in your tar.

Then you were gone, and I went spinning free --
and looked back on our life that I strove to save:
I should have tried to escape your gravity.

Now all I can think when I stand at your grave,
looking back on the life that we strove to save --
Can you see? When you died, it was my rebirth;
It forced me to remember what I was worth.